Horse Sense.

So, my life has been absolute hell, lately. Working at Starbucks. Training. Stressful. Coming home to fight with the parents and try to do homework.

Daydreaming about horses again. My dolls have fallen quite a ways behind the backburner at the moment. I need a new camera for my family, a camera for me, supplies for photography class, money for riding lessons and new riding boots since I never did have a proper pair, and also the beginnings of savings for a laptop for college.

I swear, I'm gunna live somewhere JUST like this someday. This one is actually perfect. Too bad it won't wait for me.

http://www.1horseproperty.com/EquestrianRealEstate/index.php?a=2&b=1517

Hard copy in case the link ever stops working...

"Equestrian Real Estate: Horse Property > Illinois

Ad No. 1517
Horse Property For Sale
This horse property is located in or near Pecatonica, IL
Contact:
Ad Number:
1517
Email Contact:
hmarrie
Location:
Pecatonica, IL United States
Pecatonica Horse Property Details:
Price:
$ 499,900
Description of Equestrian Home and Horse Facilities in IL
1.5 Hours NW Chicago!Equestrian Delight! Forest Preserve on 2 sides. 10 scenic acres. Stone front ranch home. Newer 80x36 horse barn with 8 stalls, office, tach room. Indoor arena 80x40. There are 8 paddocks with vinyl fencing. Breaktaking setting. Sharp 3 bedroom, 2.3 bath ranch home. Open floor plan, cathedral ceiling living room. Newer kitchen, family room with stone front fireplace, sliding doors to deck and fenced yard. $499,900For a Virtual tour go to: http://www.GambinoRealtors.com/73472 gmeyer@gambinorealtors.com "


this one's almost better. http://www.horsepropertyclassifieds.com/ForSale/index.php?a=15&b=212

The Dreadful Trifecta.

I got braces yesterday.

I broke up with Nick today.

I start school tomorrow.



"Remember: A kite rises against the wind rather than with it."
--Anonymous

I won't be brought down.

Bite the Hand that Feeds You.

Well. This morning I woke up around 7:30. I had a dream that I had woken up already and my snake was escaping from its cage. I went to put it back inside the tank and it constricted on my hand and viciously attacked my wrist.

I should have accepted that as a sign that it was going to be a bad morning, but instead I got up and went outside to give the puppy some excersize before getting to work on my Spanish scrapbook. My mother decided to take this opportunity not only to order me around, but at my refusal to do her shit just a few minutes after waking up, decided to scream and cuss at me as well. Oh, no. Now that I'm a "goddamn fucking bitch" I feel SO guilty for not helping you out. Yeah. Water your own fuckin' flowers while I "kiss your big, fat white ass." Ooookay. Then she calls and cries to dad who bitches me out as well. It's like...she doesn't even get that she's the ADULT.

Wait, wait. What?

ADULT. You're the ADULT. Most parents, most ADULTS, don't go around saying "kiss my big, fat, white ass" and calling their daughters "goddamn fucking bitches" minutes after their rolling out of bed. Most parents don't go tattle to the other parent so that he can play "conflict resolution" or, in this case, "ruin Jess's life some MORE." Most ADULTS know how to explain themselves. Now, after the fact, I understand that she was running late for work and she could have used the help. Okay. Let's think. Now, if she had explained that to me in the first place, BEFORE dishing out orders, BEFORE screaming at me, BEFORE calling me names...it would have been a different story. How the fuck am I supposed to know you're running late unless you COMMUNICATE.

Oh, wait. I forgot. We only communicate with raised voices and swear words in this house.

My mistake.

A Solitary Bean.

Oh my gosh. I grew a bean >3 One bean. Well...:/ There are others growing still, but only one was ready to be picked XD Here's a little update of how my patio garden is coming along :3

To be added later!



After weeks of active searching and YEARS of begging...-_- I finally got a car yesterday >3 It was one of those 'fate' type things. We were at a dealership called "Feeny Chevrolet" looking at a 2000 Pontiac Grand Am. :/ It looked nice on the outside, but when I started it up for the test drive it ran HORRIBLY. So I ditched that one immediately and the saleslady pointed out a Chevy Cavalier for the same price as the Grand Am. :3 It was in much better condition and had only 67,635 miles on it. As soon as I sat in the driver's seat I knew it was perfect XD We drove it home for Dad to look over and he kept me in suspense while he crawled underneath it, opened the hood, tested it for every little thing he could thing of, all the while with this glaring determined look of disapproval on his face. ;__; It made me super nervous, but finally he stepped back, crossed his arms and said.

"...It's a great looking car. I like it."

XD So. We all drove back to the dealer and my dad negotiated and then left my mom and I there to deal with the hours of paperwork -_- Typical..XD Finally, I got to drive it off the lot >3 I almost hugged Violet, the saleslady, when she handed me the keys.

Anyway >3 Here it is, if you haven't yet seen it in person. It needs a name XD
















>3 Here is a quote by Lao Tsu, who is known as the Father of Taoism. Taoism being a religion in which one cannot speak of the Tao - the highest level of spiritual understanding and the source of all things - once it is reached. :3 My favorite quote by him.

"A good traveller has no fixed plans and is not intent on arriving."
--Lao Tsu

Memento Mori.

BrahmaCd (12:31:54 AM): max zeman, yano?
StillUpAt3AM (12:31:58 AM): uh-huh?
BrahmaCd (12:32:08 AM): killed himself this morning around 3.
BrahmaCd (12:32:25 AM): *nod* hung himself in his back yard
BrahmaCd (12:32:40 AM): in his poem-letter thing he said he didn't wanna grow old


Life is short.


Max...Silly ol' clown. You'll be missed, seriously. I'm so sorry.


I dunno what else to say..

Donutgasm.

Transit Som (11:51:31 PM): Donut?
StillUpAt3AM (11:51:41 PM): YES :D I DO HAVE AT LEAST ONE FRIEND!
Transit Som (11:51:46 PM): XD WOOOO!
StillUpAt3AM (11:51:48 PM): XD
StillUpAt3AM (11:52:10 PM): i am.
StillUpAt3AM (11:52:11 PM): sp/
StillUpAt3AM (11:52:12 PM): sldkjfalsh
StillUpAt3AM (11:52:13 PM): so.
StillUpAt3AM (11:52:15 PM): happy.
Transit Som(11:52:26 PM): Donutgasm.
StillUpAt3AM (11:53:50 PM): srsly.

Lyndsay took me to Dunkin Donuts at eleven thirty at night :3

I love you, Lyndsay ;__; I really...really...love you.

Almost as much as I love French Crullers x.x I am now going to slowly and painfully devour this beautiful donut.

Goodnight, World.