Friday, October 13, 2006

My Goals.

"This is one dream I mean to cling to."
--Vianne Rocher, Chocolat

Things that are struck through are completed. Things in italics are works in progress.

-Leave everything a little better than I found it.
-Learn to understand football.
-Kiss underwater.
-Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do.
-Fill my passport.
-Sing every day.
-After moving into my own apartment, buy a cheap dining table and six mismatched chairs, and throw a small dinner party. With candles.
-Try absinthe.
-Have a kitchen garden and houseplants. Take good care of them.
-Get a fireproof box for my important documents.
-Do something dirty in an elevator and/or airplane bathroom.
-Learn to belly dance.
-Write by snail mail every so often.
-Get better at embroidery.
-Take a picture of something at least once a day.
-Volunteer at "Cowboy Dreams".
-Learn how to drive a stick shift.
-Get a tattoo.
-Go on a cruise.
-Be successful in the horse industry.
-If that fails, have a charming roadside bar with a bad-ass reputation.
-Finish reading everything on my list of "classic books to read" before I die.
-Renovate a house or at least get into some interior design.
-Find a message in a bottle. Send one.
-Take a roadtrip.
-Whiten my teeth.
-Revamp my room, empty it out, start over.
-Create my own website. Create a better one.
-Ride in a taxi.
-Cut my own hair.
-Have a bonfire on the beach.
-Sleep under the stars.
-Take a photography class.
-Play board games.
-Speak Spanish fluently.
-Dabble in other languages, like Russian, Japanese, Urdu, and German. Sign language, too.
-Learn to play the harmonica.
-Pracice my violin and my bass.
-Learn how to hotwire a car.
-Compile recipes from all my greatest friends and family.
-Give blood.
-Sew a quilt for my child.
-Coach a youth softball team.
-Adopt pets from a rescue or shelter.
-Bake better Christmas cookies.
-Take a first aid class.
-Rally, demonstrate, and protest. Stand up for what I believe in.
-Fall in love - ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love.
-Vote.
-Buy a hypnotism CD.
-Own a jukebox and a record player. Use them.
-Ride a motorcycle or moped on my own.
-Learn to whistle with my fingers and with my hands cupped.
-Give things that I hate a chance.
-Design and build my own barn. Don't forget a hidden room.
-Support unsigned musicians.
-Dye my hair a crazy color.
-Get better at skipping the small talk.
-Build something functional out of wood. A bookcase, a small table.
-Take a martial arts class.
-Break a bone.
-Try surfing.
-Establish a bedtime routine.
-Hear a homeless person's life story. Again.
-Recognize at least ten constellations.
-Wear hats.
-Philosophize.
-Learn to skateboard.
-Own an economical car - hybrid, fuel cell, or ethanol.
-Relearn how to read palms.
-Discover all the branches on my family tree.
-Be a better employee.
-Apply for at least three scholarships each week.
-Stay in touch with my extended family. E-mail Aunt Dar.
-Research religions.
-Stretch every morning.
-Open a checking account.
-Volunteer with Habitat for Humanity.
-Take a ballroom dance class.

-Perfect my calligraphy.
-Fold a thousand paper cranes. (Maybe.)
-Live in a studio apartment with sparse furnishings and big windows.
-Bake home-made bread every Sunday, when I have my own family.
-Constantly expand, subtract, and perfect my DVD collection.
-Keep up with politics, foreign affairs, and other current events.
-Learn to knit.
-Bartend.
-Get back into cross-country skiing in the winter.
-Have a wrap-around porch and a porch swing or a rocking chair.
-Go to a strip club.
-Study abroad.
-Try a new recipe every month.
-See the aurora borealis.
-See the Cirque Du Soleil.
-Be a tourist in my own town.
-Have garage sales.
-Spend a month driving around the country and staying in dumpy motels, photographing everything.
-Go skinny dipping. In the Mediterranean Sea.
-Save someone's life. (Does giving blood count...? :3 Maybe I'll cross this off if I never save someone another way.)
-Get business cards.
-Get my allergies tested and figure out what's up with my ovaries.
-Handle my snake every day so she gets used to me. Before she gets big enough to bite off my hand.
-Go on a whale-watching boat. Actually see some whales.
-Return to Niagara Falls and D.C. Appreciate them more this time around.
-While I'm up in New England, take a ferry to Novia Scotia.
-Barrel race.
-Do cartwheels.
-Learn more about the Burning Man festival and possibly attend one day.
-Go to Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
-Learn how to shoot a rifle.
-Play pool and darts well - the sports of the bar.
-Learn how to use a sewing machine.
-Learn how to rig a fishing pole. Always bait my own hook and unhook my own fish.
-Make an ofrenda every year for Day of the Dead - there's always someone's memory to honor.

-Dye my hair a funky color after graduation, to celebrate.
-Get a Daily Deviation on DeviantArt.
-Dye one of my pets a bright color - with non-toxic vegetable-based dye, of course.
-Write something in wet cement.
-Raise a child.

-Tie the stem of a cherry with my tongue - because maybe I can.
-Wear skirts more often.
-Go clubbing.
-Go paintballing.
-Build a treehouse.
-Go to at least two concerts over the summer.
-Light a candle for someone.
-Get a massage.
-Write a letter to the editor.
-Press flowers. Every spring.
-Find that place where it looks like, if you keep driving, you'll fall off the edge of the world.
-Swim in natural hot springs.
-Go waterskiing.
-Get a pedicure.
-Perfect a cookie recipe.
-Record Gramma D telling her life story. Finish it.
-Plant a tree.
-Fly a kite.
-Roast marshmallows in the back yard.
-Go apple-picking.
-Go to the drive-in as often as possible.
-Ride a bicycle built for two.
-Catch fireflies. Again.
-Build a snowman. Again.
-Go sailing.

-Have a birdfeeder.
-Actually listen to Martin Luther King Jr.'s "I Have A Dream".
-See a bullfight.
-Roll my own sushi.

-Kiss on a ferris wheel at an old-fashioned carnival.
-Listen to classical music.
-Investigate falconry.
-Ride a mechanical bull.
-Get into UrbEx.
-Go downtown at least once a month.





p.s. spell something out with photos of things with letters on them.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Late Bloomer.

This is my Velvet Queen Sunflower from earlier this year. I planted it far after the growing season and I didn't honestly expect it to survive to bloom.

But it did.

I think it's kind of a sign.

It's what my life is like right now. Struggling, balancing my energy towards different things (What is this called in biology..? The balancing of energy for survival...), and - hopefully - eventually blooming.




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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Horse Sense.

So, my life has been absolute hell, lately. Working at Starbucks. Training. Stressful. Coming home to fight with the parents and try to do homework.

Daydreaming about horses again. My dolls have fallen quite a ways behind the backburner at the moment. I need a new camera for my family, a camera for me, supplies for photography class, money for riding lessons and new riding boots since I never did have a proper pair, and also the beginnings of savings for a laptop for college.

I swear, I'm gunna live somewhere JUST like this someday. This one is actually perfect. Too bad it won't wait for me.

http://www.1horseproperty.com/EquestrianRealEstate/index.php?a=2&b=1517

Hard copy in case the link ever stops working...

"Equestrian Real Estate:
Horse Property > Illinois

Ad No. 1517
Horse Property For Sale
This horse property is located in or near Pecatonica, IL
Contact:
Ad Number:
1517
Email Contact:
hmarrie
Location:
Pecatonica, IL United States
Pecatonica Horse Property Details:
Price:
$ 499,900
Description of Equestrian Home and Horse Facilities in IL
1.5 Hours NW Chicago!Equestrian Delight! Forest Preserve on 2 sides. 10 scenic acres. Stone front ranch home. Newer 80x36 horse barn with 8 stalls, office, tach room. Indoor arena 80x40. There are 8 paddocks with vinyl fencing. Breaktaking setting. Sharp 3 bedroom, 2.3 bath ranch home. Open floor plan, cathedral ceiling living room. Newer kitchen, family room with stone front fireplace, sliding doors to deck and fenced yard. $499,900For a Virtual tour go to:
http://www.GambinoRealtors.com/73472 gmeyer@gambinorealtors.com "


this one's almost better. http://www.horsepropertyclassifieds.com/ForSale/index.php?a=15&b=212

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

The Dreadful Trifecta.

I got braces yesterday.

I broke up with Nick today.

I start school tomorrow.



"Remember: A kite rises against the wind rather than with it."
--Anonymous


I won't be brought down.